Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Getting better enough to be depressed about it - two weeks ago I was just praying for the days to pass or death to come. Now I am better, I can sit up, Maiya and I chill watching cartoons and eating in the living room. But I am still nauseas and I am well aware how messy the house is - and I get more frustrated everyday that I can't/don't do anything about it.

I am tired of this pregnancy making me into Eeyore

Eeyore, the old grey Donkey, stood by the side of the stream, and looked at himself in the water. "Pathetic," he said. "That's what it is. Pathetic." He turned and walked slowly down the stream for twenty yards, splashed across it, and walked slowly back on the other side. Then he looked at himself in the water again. "As I thought," he said. "No better from this side. But nobody minds. Nobody cares. Pathetic, that's what it is."

I know it will get better soon. I am excited that I am starting to show a bit - I mean skinny girls wouldn't notice. But my fat belly beats out my boobs a little, and none of my jeans button. Anything that makes me feel pregnant instead of just sick is encouraging. I can't wait to feel gummy move and I really can't wait to find out if gummy is a boy or a girl.

I was sick until 18 weeks with Maiya - so if this follows protocol I have three more weeks. Hopefully I can kick out Eeyore before then and Janie can move back in.


Sarah said...

if you don't kick him out, i will. although, i am in my own little eyore funk right now.

Practically Perfect In Every Way said...

poor poor mommy! i'm no where as sick as you and can't seem to make any head way on this house. my daughter thinks a normal day is mommy coming home from work and staying in bed forever. thus Noggin is raising my child.

it's hard not to be depressed when you are sitting in a house you know as a wife and mother you should be in charge of..... yet, so far it is still impossible.

it's hard to be a woman. hey my belly is out too, i can't wait to find out what this spawn inside me is too!

Benteti5 said...

Valentine's Day is coming up; maybe you can ask for Merry Maids or something as a gift. That would cheer you up.