Got out in the driveway at home and BAM another contraction. So we decided Meg should probably stay and see what happens. I walked in the house and whoa... Nature called. This was good. I texted my Birth Boot Camp friend who was coming to observe the birth that I thought I was in early labor and just had diarrhea.
who does that?
(weeks and weeks later I went to text her before our Birth Boot Camp workshop and I noticed one of the last texts to her was "good news I have diarrhea.") OMG so embarrassing. I mean hardcore birth junkies know that is a good sign of early labor. But really? I am a dork beyond compare.
If you think you are in labor the best idea is to IGNORE it. Its the law of diminishing returns: If you start doing all your relaxation stuff right off the bat that relaxation stuff won't be as new or helpful later in labor. So I thought, "I'll go take a bath." But no, I might need that hot water... So I'll just take a shower. Three contractions in the shower one requiring I hang off the door. I thought this might be the real deal. Meg walked by and said "there is blood running down your leg". I pictured immediate transfer to hospital and freaked out. It was just from ramming my leg in her car. phew.
I was just on the cusp of saying
"this is it."
So much so that when I got out of the shower I put on my 'birth gown'. I had bought this gown FULL PRICE (so not like me) right at the tail end of morning sickness. I saw it and felt how soft it was and just pictured myself birthing in it. Majority of homebirthers birth sans clothing. But my children hang out in close proximity and I'm just more comfortable with clothing. This gown was a stretchy crossover - still perfect for skin to skin.
I had arrived! I had survived morning sickness. I was finally in labor and I might be at that moment when for the last time in my life there was a baby.( in. my. body). It was bittersweet, so like I do, I got that last picture taken: